I guess I’ll just wait
Another month
Just one November
Some time in between
And then I’ll tell you
I promise
I always keep my promise
But I should wait
I don’t know what I want
And I’m sorry I hurt you
I’m sorry it will be more than a November
I just need to know if it was you
Or the feeling
I wish they were one in the same, but
Sometimes it’s too easy for me to
fall in love with love
and not you
God I don’t want to
Hurt you

And that is what’s
Changed
I hurt him to find comfort in anything else, but
Hurting you is
Slowly
Clipping —chipping at my heart
Right in the middle
Like a bullet that goes straight in so
You dig, and dig dig dig
Through this mess in your chest your
Mind alone in its room of mirrors nothing
Is changing

Bang shot fired only
One shot fired but zing
Boom Boom Boom
louder, pounding head shouting
don’t bite it just swallow
Chest is hollow throat is
Tighter face turning whiter wait-
Don’t forget to breathe, *******, in ,****,
out- stop