Whilst the sun doth rise
Bird and beast awaken
From slumber
So profound
Canceling all else out

In the cavern
Walking into the tavern
I should have known

Awaiting me
Temptations
Sins I should not know
Never should I commit such a terror
Yet
For reasons I simply
Can no longer grasp
Such was completed

Swiftly
Quicker than a hare
I flee
Feeling it
Closing in
Making my skin ripple
Crawling uncontrollably

Walking up
The stairway to hell's door
Have it
I shouldn't
It won't hurt...

A quick sip
Pain rushing in
Regretting all in an instant
Never touching it again
No
I didn't even know me anymore

Close my weary eyes
Open again
Peace to chaos
Wondering what went wrong
Then realizing
Panic
It's all over now...

Toss it aside
Bring it back
Tear myself apart
Drag the pain across
Blood oozing
Punches
One after another
Thump, thump, thump
Please
I plee
To me
Let me go...

Uh-oh
Watch it all go
Mocking you
Talking to you
Shouting
Screaming
Run
You do
Only momentarily eased...

Nothing I can do
About these past regrets
But look back
Take the attack
Head on
Then submit
To the painful defeat

- Jay M
May 1st, 2019