I am struggling with so many unsuccessful attempts
my lungs are full of smoke and I forgot how to breathe
I have lifeless frozen fingers
and I can't play my favorite instrument
without music there is no longer life,
I'm trying to warm my voice
but nothing comes out of me
not even a sound
I'm paralyzed by pain
a terrible pain filled with longing
of a desire to fly...
but I can not fly
and how could I?
oh God!
I feel like I'm dying
I have lead wings and I can not fly.