You broke my heart, you know
When you walked away.
I lay on the floor
Banged my head against the wall
Wailed and begged you to stay
Held my heart hostage for you
You never looked back
seeming to move on as you left
It hurt some more
You left me broken in agony.
I tried to fix myself
With some duct tape
Cigarettes you left behind
Maybe as I inhaled the smoke
A part of you came back to me.
I tore your pictures to shreds
Saw your face in every reflection
I broke the mirrors and windows
but still your shadow remained
Lingering, looming, lurking.
You consume me like a flame
searing even as you went.
I can't get you out
Even as I scream to drown out your voice
you're not mine anymore!
Go bother someone else
I don't want you here
And yet you color all my memories
Tinged red by anger and hurt
You hurt me everytime
I remember your touch.
How it soothed the pain
And took my breath away.
You are the same one
That took away my reason to live
How can I stay here broken?
losing myself in drink and smoke
trying to find a reason
to live again.