Apr 2019
i really do hate those words
theyre like venom
invading all my thoughts
poisoning them
turning them
“why cant you do this?”
“why cant you be this?”
“why cant you?”
how am i supposed to answer that ?
“becuase im weak”
“because i am not what you want”
“because i have come to hate my own skin”
is this what you want to hear?
mirror mirror on the wall
who is that staring back at you
who is that failure
who is that mirage
who is that coward
and why cant she just be
anything but herself ?
theyre like venom
invading all my thoughts
poisoning them
turning them
“why cant you do this?”
“why cant you be this?”
“why cant you?”
how am i supposed to answer that ?
“becuase im weak”
“because i am not what you want”
“because i have come to hate my own skin”
is this what you want to hear?
mirror mirror on the wall
who is that staring back at you
who is that failure
who is that mirage
who is that coward
and why cant she just be
anything but herself ?
i dont even know
i tried a different style kind of than what im used to its more like abrupt thoughts than fluid motion? idk...im just...really frusterated and i feel like i burden everyone in my life with my problems so i cant tell them...i feel utterly worthless...please dont pity me or hate me...i have had enough of that...i just wish someone would understand and help pick up the broken pieces of myself without acting as if it was a burden...i feel like an arrogant ***** after saying that...i just...dont know anymore you guys...
i tried a different style kind of than what im used to its more like abrupt thoughts than fluid motion? idk...im just...really frusterated and i feel like i burden everyone in my life with my problems so i cant tell them...i feel utterly worthless...please dont pity me or hate me...i have had enough of that...i just wish someone would understand and help pick up the broken pieces of myself without acting as if it was a burden...i feel like an arrogant ***** after saying that...i just...dont know anymore you guys...
