My heart is so heavy
I feel if I step on a scale
It’ll say I weigh 1000 pounds
It is recklessly beating away
Never bothering to explain
Why it’s still pumping and pumping
I feel I am dislodged
Like I am all together separate
From this body and this brain
That are supposed to be in tandem
But utterly refuse too
My heart is so heavy
And in the middle of battle
Is never where you want to feel
Subdued by inward hurt
Yet as I lie here
Broken..
I choose to stand again
And with trembling hands
I grasp hold of my sword
For today is a day of war
Today I will rise again
One day I will fall
One day I will  meet the end,
But today is not that day
I lift my head and blow my horn
Today I charge the enemy
Today I stand to fight