Screaming, crying, wailing at the top of their lungs,
The demons beg me to listen,
To go into the night,
Drink away the sorrows,
Over-do the meds just a little,
Tip over the edge,
Look down and hopefully fall,
But I want to stay...

Stay, and be in pain.
Be emptier than the most barren place,
Yet go, and be free of it,
Shed the pain,
Don't know where you'll end up...

So badly I wish to go,
Several times I've tried,
Still, I wish to stay...

Maybe...
Hate me...
Break me...
Let me feel something...

Crush me until I am nothing left but mush,
A pathetic puddle,
Reflecting the tears,
The blood,
The sacrifices made to remain...

- Jay M
March 25th, 2019