And then you spoke to me. A soft voice in the darkness. One I'd waited for for far too long.
And I told you not to move: Not to stop talking. I broke the spell--our spell. Like a balloon, so afraid for you to fly, I held you too tight.
I didn't craddle you properly. I didn't let you fly and return. âĶI couldn't. I knew you would leave me. And I am sorry.
I am also sorry that you hurt me along the way. That I let you. I let you form static electricity around my heart again and again as you laughed. You laughed at me, in the dark. Inaudible were the words, but I found out later. I found out who you were, later.
I found who I was, too.
I found out that I gave you more than you deserved. And I hurt you far more than what was called for. And I never let you go. Not then. Not now.
This time I hold the string not to keep you with me (You have already flown away; You flew away without my permission. And you flew away with it, too.) I hold the string because that string is love. And you were my first. And I would never want to get rid of that part of me. I couldn't if I tried.
So I hold the string to remember; Because there is no sky that could contain the both of us in this lifetime. But I can hold who I was when I was with you. And I can hold who you have made me become.
And I can remember you.
You taught me how to properly let go.
But most importantly, You taught me how to properly