Wish I could take it back
What have I done?
I’m sorry
I just want to be okay,
Let me be..
Let me be okay…

How can I say this without breaking?
How can I put it into words,
When it burns like a flame?
I don’t want them to know,
The secrets I do,
I loved, and I loved,
But it wasn’t enough...
Not for them,
No hem to fix this…

No matter how hard I try,
No matter how hard I work,
I can’t sew it back together,
This broken soul,
All these broken souls,
Surrounding me,
Why must they be in pain?
Bring it to me,
Set you free,
Let you be....

It’s taking over,
I’m slipping,
Falling away,
I can’t catch my breath,
Can’t fight this,
Can’t help but give in...
Yet, some small part of me still holds on,
Still doesn’t want to fade away,
But the demons silence it,
Drive it down,
Further and further from the light…

Why must I be this way?
So tired and lost,
Some say it’s idiotic,
Some call me lazy,
But no; I simply have no energy left,
All will gone,
Left to float through the rapids,
To drown in the depths of pain,
To drown out the screams,
The thrashing and fighting,
How much longer can I go on?
Hold on to this life,
Before I am no more…?

- Jay M
October 12th, 2018