Your good mood
is making me insane
why can't I feel like that
Your smile hits me
and I'm already falling down
You give me reasons to stay
and I want to let go
I'm still so misunderstood
I don't know me
and you won't either
sometimes I wish you'd leave the room
so I can break myself without shame
sometimes I want to hit all the mirrors
so you can throw all the pieces in my face
you're making me sad
I already hate myself
why do you give me everything
leave me alone
I'm spiraling down
don't come looking for me
someone save me
don't call for me
someone look for me

how I put up with my mess
how I put up a smile to tame away the sadness
how I talk like I wasn't forming final plans in my head
how I don't know where to go
how I don't know if I should let us go

maybe you should sleep further away
maybe I should wake up before you
maybe I could move away

the more
I stay
the more I disappear

I can't find my head
I can't find my head
my mind is nowhere close
please
wish me well