I can not be ok unless my world is crumbling apart. I can only stretch my limbs around your calamity tie them in a bow, if my eucatastrophe catastrophically collapses.
The more my mind becomes at peace, the more I stay awake at night staring out my window into the ink shadow, And tango with the shattered moonlight.
Nostalgia consumes Slip and plummet into a cataclysmic monsune
So I welcome you, I beg you, rip my heart to shreds make my mind a mess. Defile my body and brake my sprit, burn my tattered shreds in the blazing fire of your hate.
Look at it insanity, everywhere, everything I will drown in it, I will drown in the screams. Humanity clings But pain, the saviour the messiah is the only thing that makes me feel okay the only way I can tell fantasy from fiction pain is the only thing that keeps my devils at bay.
I am the creator of my own catastrophe, I am the designer of my own tragedy. Agony. I am both my antidote and poison, the repercussions of one are felt at magananimous magnitudes of the other. A never ending cycle. Estranged peace, unwonted quite. Lock myself in a small room let darkness take me, insanity break me, my demons create me, the evils of the world dance in that room, they dance with me. This is my estranged peace, this is my unwonted quite.
I smile, a smile so out of place, put on my mask to cover my face. I gather my shreds and sow them into a terrorizingly beautiful quilt. I can only be human if mayhem is raging under the surface of the lie I built bubbling over pressure building scales tipping.
There is something terribly irreparably broken. There is a darkness that was terribly irreparably woken