how can you do that ?
confessing that you aren't
so good lately,
that you couldn't feel anything,
and then later on you just
gave up on everything,
thinking of doing something.

how can you do that ?
after that you were so jolly,
it's like you haven't said such
things to me,
you were so okay,
but it was so unreal,
super disarray.

how can you do that ?
the duality
lying to yourself, im afraid not,
the facade of being fine when
you're actually not