I've been sick. I'm still sick. I'm going to be sick for a while.
But that's okay. I have hope that it won't last forever. Eventually I'll find something that works. One day I'll leave this self-imposed quarantine.
I apologise. I'm oversharing again. You always told me I did that too much.
How have you been? Did you get that degree? Have you travelled to Japan like you said you would? Did you learn to play the drums?
Have you fixed your relationship with your parents? Did you finally forgive them? Have you kept in contact with your sisters? Your school friends?
And have you solidified your identity? It's hard. The hardest challenge I've ever faced. If I can't do it, you must. Or else you will be miserable for the rest of your life.
But you must not close yourself off like before. You don't have to hide your emotions. To master them, you have to let them consume you and then climb out of the abyss.
You're strong. You can do it. I believe in you.
Write back to me. Let me know if you're happy. I hope, for both of our sakes, that you are.