self sabotage is easy
when you don’t believe
you deserve the world.
when you don’t believe
someone could
ever
love you.

that it’s easier to
lose than to love.
so my brain screams
Lose
Lose
Lose
Lose
and my heart attempts to flee my being.

beat away from the hurt
abandonment
selfishness
lust
hunger
loss
despair
the emptiness.

how could you ever love
me