A brief moment of shimmering and brightness
More intense than I knew possible
Eventually returns to the comfortable numbness and sadness

My life before you was okay
But I need better than okay
I don’t want to go back to okay

I don’t want a replacement
I want you

And I know the things that I miss aren’t specifically yours
But it feels like after an eternity I found you
And I was perfect

Someday I’ll get back there
It’ll be missing you

But I won’t be