I wish I could say beautiful things, but I can't
only bitterness
drips
from these
cracked lips
and drops into your warm sweet mouth
in the form  of  a "kiss"
like black ink it expands
into all spaces it can
leaving you rather breathless
in a horrible self doubting kind of way

I wish I could say beautiful things, but I can't
beauty only escapes from where it exists
I've been searching for years now
I've been wanting to create it
but never known how
it is too dark to see
into the depths of me
into the black hole that is I
why do I feel the need to make you cry
so much of the time.

I wish I could say beautiful things, but I can't .
if I could,
I'd tell you how you shake me
and have opportunities to break me
yet you don't
I'd tell you I wish I knew how to love,
I wish I had the ability to hug,
the way you do
through
and
through
and
through.
I yearn to do
so much more for you

I wish I could say beautiful things, but i can't.
because you are the only beautiful thing
about me.