Today I imagined my death. Not my actual death, but the events leading up to it imagined what it would be like to see the inevitable as a tangible ending
I imagined the people who I hoped would come to see me What would they say? Would they be sad. Angry. Would they try to hide their pain? I wrote out what I would tell them all, the people I love The list grew past where I could keep track.
I imagined what I would feel. Scared. sad. lonely
In my imaginings, the fear of death brought with it depression, a
numbness
Except that I realized I'd been a fool You don't mourn someone while they are alive I had already counted myself within those gone, but there I was still breathing
And when I awoke from this imagining I believed again in the faith of being happy before sad Why would you want to be sad now when it will undoubtedly find you later
Let sadness take its turn when it will Allow the happiness you know exists to breath while it can