you don't talk to me . you talk at me . you talk just so you'll have someone who'll listen . and I always listen to you . I listen to you before you listen to me and you never listen to me . It's like I'm tuned into your channel and you're tuned into yourself . every single one of you only care about yourselves and it does not make any sense to me . how can someone constantly pay attention to you yet , you can only see details about yourself ? selfish , rapacious , parsimonious . different word , same meaning . different people , same reaction .
how come some of us are destined to be the ones who care while others are the ones who get cared for ? why am I forced to feel like when I'm talking but not a soul is listening ? in one ear and out the other or maybe it goes right over your head ? is it possible that every word I've spoken has been ignored because of lack of interest ? why is it that I'm always the one who fades into the background ? I'm the one who starts the story but never gets to finish . the one with so much to tell but no one to tell it to . the one who just wants to be heard but has already been muted .
I am mute .
This is something that been weighing heavily on my mind. "