Sometimes I wonder what the hell is wrong with me. All these beyond ****** up fantasies. It's not enough to end up on my knees. I wanna do more than bleed. I want you to hurt me harder. Push me farther. Sometimes I day dream about being held captive. Beyond psychopathic attractive. Wonder what it's like to be completely humiliated. Loved to the point of being hated. Want you to make me a good pet. Pull my strings like a marionette.
Sometimes I get these sick thoughts about what you could do. All the absolute ******* you could put me through. And how I want that. Call me useless, worthless, fat. Then go a step further. Make me wonder why you even bother. Punish me like I'm nothing. Yet like you still have hope I could be something.
Sometimes I want you to just about **** me. Make me beg for you to stop but don't you stop even if I'm crying. Make me think I'm going to die. Strip me down where I can't even fight.
Sometimes I think about deprivation. Meat hook suspension.  Crush me into a pulp. Make me mentally ****** up.  Want scars that I can't explain. I don't want to ever be the same.