“...But didn't your mother die too? Back before we came?” Some thoughts, Dad? That day for you? How was it?
Tell me how you woke in gray – dressed so uniformly in it Tell me how you turned away from all those helpless flowers on the ground Came back empty to her kitchen Still filled with the smells of her
Let me see her! Hear her! Once! With any words –
besides the ones about the meat juice on her dress The roast flung back to splatter rage upon the gentle curse I see reflect in my own image across the table from him...
I want to know about the picture on your bureau Do silent eyes still tuck you in? She has a kind face that seems unending I understand why things have gone unsaid
Do you know? I have been wondering Sneaking in your room to pull her down from heaven? To melt the years of frosted glass between us? to touch her face? To look into her grayish eyes pretending for a moment – she can really see me To lay my head against her calico embrace?
Celina Arnell Rodier, 1872 – 1941 (Dad's Mom)
With all my grandparents gone before I was born. I have only glimpses of them from photos and visits to their homesteads as a child. -- and, of course the stories passed along.