Maybe it’d be better if I died.
All the pain would ease out of existence
The racing thoughts that grip and squeeze my brain
Would erupt into the universe like rain from a cloud
I would not cry tears anymore
I would not feel the agony that stabs like a knife
Blood against heart
Until the spiked feeling when your body lets go
And the warm water empties from your eyes
Maybe it’d be better if I died.
The world is repulsive
And I don’t believe in love anymore
But wait
That’s it.
I don’t even love myself.
Maybe it’d be better if I didn’t die.
Cause people only care about themselves
So you might as well too.
Maybe it’d be better if I didn’t die.
Because maybe that’s not what its about.
Maybe
Nobody ever loves me
But maybe that’s not what its about.
Maybe it’d be better if I didn’t die.
Because I haven’t seen New York
And New York makes me want to live.
There’s meadows and rivers and trees and forests.
If I die.
Maybe I should go there first.