Maybe it’d be better if I died. All the pain would ease out of existence The racing thoughts that grip and squeeze my brain Would erupt into the universe like rain from a cloud I would not cry tears anymore I would not feel the agony that stabs like a knife Blood against heart Until the spiked feeling when your body lets go And the warm water empties from your eyes Maybe it’d be better if I died. The world is repulsive And I don’t believe in love anymore But wait That’s it. I don’t even love myself. Maybe it’d be better if I didn’t die. Cause people only care about themselves So you might as well too. Maybe it’d be better if I didn’t die. Because maybe that’s not what its about. Maybe Nobody ever loves me But maybe that’s not what its about. Maybe it’d be better if I didn’t die. Because I haven’t seen New York And New York makes me want to live. There’s meadows and rivers and trees and forests. If I die. Maybe I should go there first.