Growing up my mother taught me
How to drink until you don’t feel pain anymore
She taught me how many calories were in an apple
And that the only way men would love you
Was if you were skinny
And kept your mouth shut

My father taught me how to hold a grudge
That’s too big for one person to carry
He taught me that words mean nothing
Promises will only leave you disappointed
That they’re never going to show up if you’re waiting for them to

I grew up thinking pain and love were synonymous
Sometimes I forget that they’re not
There is no forever,
Only for now

Someday love will grow tired of you
And leave you for her boss
Love will grow tired of waiting
And marry the first person that shows up
Because isn’t settling better than being alone?

When I was a child I believed love never died
It didn’t take long for me to learn
That love was never alive to begin with
It’s an object used to fill the empty spaces inside of you
So you might feel whole again
If even just for a moment
Until the magic wears off
And you move onto the next one