i couldn't focus because of the rain running into the window. oh how the world was literally gray. i could see the trees and pavement getting wet from where i was sitting. i wondered where you were right now? was this rain your tears? i wanted to hold you. i missed the way you cupped my face in your hands, how your eyes healed me. the rain brought me out of my trance of you and brought back to my body, to this world without you.