i guess you still want me
you waited for me like you always do
i was afraid that after i told you what i felt, you would leave
but you waited
and you held open your arms
and welcomed me back in
and i layed my head on your shoulder and just stayed there
and i held you tight
yes, you hurt me
but that doesn't mean i don't love you
i love you with everything in me
i love you more than humanly possible
i couldn't see it
this blanket of fatigue has been wrapped around me
and it's not ready to go away
i made a mistake
i thought i didn't love you
i thought i was done
because i can't feel anything right now in my life
but after it kicked in
that you may leave
my heart broke into pieces
and i could feel again
just for that moment
tears filled my eyes
i was upset
that i might have ruined yet another thing
i walked down the hallway
using all the strength i had not to cry
and i think that's why i've been so tired
there's too many moments
where i cannot feel a thing
i cannot feel what i'm supposed to feel
and trying to understand that is so tiring
but you're still here
and i told you i was tired
and you told me you would carry me if i wanted
you still care
you still want me
i just hope i didn't ruin this
and don't even know it