I feel pain although I wasn't hurt,
I feel anger even though I was never provoked,
My mind goes crazy without alert,
And a lot of my memories in a second are invoked.

I do without thinking,
Cause my thoughts hold me back,
I wouldn't care due to my heart's always sinking,
and an ending is something I want but lack.

I show off my skills,
or what people say are mine,
cause what they said always gave me thrills,
but I could tell they were lies due to the signs.

Maybe it's true,
Maybe it's all in my head,
Are these words real?
I still have no clue.

The only reason I'm not dead,
Is because she needs me,
If I left she would dread,
And would lose the person she most needs.