He was asleep beside me.
I leaned into his side
and kissed the outline of his jaw
and the tip of his nose

I took his hand in mine
and brought it to my lips
feeling the rough skin of his palm
and I pushed up his sleeve

In the darkness of the bedroom
I looked down at
the lines melting into his soft skin
the red ones overlapping the white

And I suddenly knew
I knew how sad he really was
I knew he wasn't fine
when he said he was