you hit me like an ugly freight train although i did see you in the distance please don't judge me i saw one sign, but didn't believe it could be true
lost in a swirl of dark shadows judgement judgement judgement looking to the past and future and present searching for proof for or against
my dark shadows test my body who would think of this i must be evil, gross, and wrong suicide the only hope
watching water fowl swim wish i could drown beneath the algae pond in california secret secrets i finally speak
pills, doctors, fears, hoping but always sitting there the thoughts that keep me tied to the sofa staring at blank walls and stabbing myself in my mind
ocd is my deepest shame i feel the tentacles reaching my stomach turns at the ghosts that haunt me resist the pull of falling in