I was up until almost 4 am last night
thinking about you
and you will never know that
I can't keep my mind off of you
If we're being honest here,
I wish I never approached you
I wouldn't be hurting the way I do now
I'm not good at making friends
So I'm going to need you to make the first move
to get to know each other
Because I won't
That's not me
I wish you could just magically already know someone
But you can't
And that's why I don't have too many close friends
Once I know you
I can be completely myself and it's so easy
But the beginning phases of friendship are just too much
for me to handle
And I shouldn't have approached you
Because I put myself down because of it
I feel like I'm not good enough standing next to you
And that's the truth
I feel like nothing when I'm around you
I'm sorry
It's really not your fault
It's mine for being so insecure
and for approaching you in the first place
If you don't want to know me
just tell me
Because it hurts less than to wonder if you do