Everything about the future is so different now: Thinking about the future before, Used to be like fluffy white clouds, Hopeful and filled with friends, Back then, I could never have imagined not having friends And I'm not even the type of person who's magically friends with everyone, But I always assumed I'd still have a few, And then it wouldn't matter so much how many people hated me, Hypothetically, if anyone even bothered enough to. I'm not sure they would though, Because I don't feel like anyone even sees me, Not anymore, and probably not in the first place, But I didn't care then, enough to notice.