I can not sleep, but I am so tired
I can not eat and everytime I do I feel like throwing up

even just taking a ******* shower
feels like the hardest thing on earth
standing up in the morning seems impossible.

It feels like my whole world is breaking
into a million pieces
like my heart is being torn apart

I just can´t stop thinking about you

And saying I miss you or even I love feels so wrong
and so right at the same time

I feel like you are my burden

like right now I don´t just have to carry my own weight
but also the weight you left, when you decided
I wasn´t worth it.

When you decided we would never be
and thats the point you decided
...I never did