I haven’t eaten in days and my blood pressure is steadily spiraling downward.
Inconsistent pulsation behind my eyes keeps me awake throughout the nights.
What is wrong with me?
Why am I like this?
Repeated questions runs laps but I can’t grasp this concept of normality or whatever you may refer to as modern culture.
So as a result, I suffer.
I don’t think like you do.
Loving is confusing because I’m not even sure what it means to me, if it’s even right for me.
My mind is as complicated as an ***** with the wrong valves.
Sure, I feel something, but in a different aspect of emotional volume.
The same energies flows through me, but I’m not sure of how to let it all out the way you would.
It’s almost like trying to solve a Rubik’s cube while colorblind.
Maybe this is what I’m here for;
Trying to find a way to smile while experiencing low levels of confidence.
But I manage and no one thinks anything of the lonely days and empty nights.
I can’t find my humanity.
Im always trying to escape the truth of knowing that there’s nothing better.
Maybe I’m a psychopath.
Maybe I don’t fit in with the crowd.
Whatever it is knows me better than I seem to know myself.
But no one listens.
So what do I do when they don’t hear the cries?
Give up begging for help or just deal with the agony?
Never mind for now, reality is fading away once again.
I can get lost in my mind for a little while now and not worry about anything,
Because by the time someone hears the cries, it’ll be too late.