she told me not to so i could finish my shampoo bottle and conditioner bottle at the same time.
i never do.
one is either too full,
i'll never finish them at the same time and i think that was the point but why do you want me here?

i love the way the trees look when it's windy but recently,
not even they make me want to stay.
i'm sorry.

i can't shake this empty feeling that fills up my entire body,
my entire soul,
my whole existence.
it's something that's too big for me to ignore and it hovers over me,
waiting for me to get better.
waiting for me to smile, to laugh.
and when i do then it hits me,
i feel nothing again.

why should i stay?