i don’t know where i’m going
the road behind me blurred like tears
new directions, old insecurities
they tell me now to face my fears

but i can’t
what if i can’t?

walking on eggshells
tripping on a tightrope cold
monotonous road of hidden knives
chokehold the new to bury the old

and i can’t
i just can’t

all tight smiles, unnatural laughter
driven to cursed synergy
once-crossed and twice-gifted
i’m running out of energy

and maybe i can’t
or maybe i just don’t know how