you’re growing inside me like a **** you thought was a flower as a child before the days your mother threw the dandelion bouquet you made her into the yard waste pile. it was a definitive part of growing up she’d say. im smiling but my feet are bare and the floor im walking on is needles needless to say i already know you’re darling in every way we’ve been communicating these last nine months through a layer of flesh like we’re pen pals you know my skin and bones like family and I know your kicks and punches like it’s yesterdays news.
i can’t tell you this but i am fearful
fearful of who i will become what i have to offer fearful of the control of my life, the constant day to day swing of things i know I must leave in the rear view mirror
only for once i don’t care for once
i am an autumn leaf t u m b l i n g
down to uncertainty only instead of fighting it i surrender.