Going home from visiting a friend I have walking this same path Walked this way, countless times Up a slight hill of a lonely street To a desolate alley in summer darkness
But I need to take a call of nature So I start to relieve myself To **** against a unyielding wall And I am blind to those behind me Two youths of eighteen or nineteen
I feel the liquid pouring down my leg Then in seconds it is a ball of flame My left leg, burning in pain, agony I turn and they are running and laughing Leaving me alone and I feel the skin burn
I kick the right shoe off my foot And intend to take off these burning Jeans But the foot is a ball of orange flame The liquid had not travelling down the leg It had gone into my shoe, burning from inside
I am shaking, in my shorts in night summer heat I try kicking this fire out against the wall The agony has taken my mind, insanity takes the pain Unknowing, three toes snap as I continue to kick But the fire burns on, with the smell of burning flesh
No one is there to help me, I only want to sleep Concrete steps keep me from reaching safety From this alley up to the waiting maisonettes So I hold the rail, and force myself to climb up And still the left leg burns and the pain returns in fury
I make it and there is someone in the kitchen The first maisonette that stands on the corner He sees me and he sees the flames that hurt me He looks at me in horror, and then there is screaming The screaming is coming from me, I can not stop
The man comes out with a bowl of water He throws it over the burning foot and I pass out I awake and there is a neighbour holding me I see people all around me and I try to remember The pain and memory come rushing back
Firemen are there now, hosing my leg with water I hear a crackling and realise it is the leg The screaming starts again, and it never stops Coming deep inside of me, for this madness to end And again darkness takes me as my mind shuts off
I am in an Ambulance, but I do not feel safe They are out there and could still come for me Why did they do this? What did I do? I never even knew who they were And the horror etches deep into my head
That was years ago, and I still carry the scars The leg was saved, full thickness burn Skin grafts rebuilt it, but it still breaks down Three toes amputated, the big toe and ones next Yes it still haunts me now and it always will