I could have any troubled girl I wanted They’re just through a phone screen
I could have any stupid girl I wanted I would just have to sell ****
I could have any unconscious girl I wanted They’re just at a party lying face down *** up, from holding too many glasses up, I mean who could that pass up? What else do you think a frat does?
Umm gross...
I’ll just stay at home Which is where?
Halfway through a bottle is a warm place to be Buds make good friends, And trees hug back if you’re lucky The real danger from cigarettes is a rotator cuff injury From repetitive motions Ignore the choking And feed into the cancer machine
If I only had the money A depression nap at a friend’s house is all I need
I could have any high-school girl I wanted But now they’re too simple Just put Chicken nuggets, Veganism, or puppies on a tinder
Or learn your anatomy And it’s all in the strokes One size fits them all And it all becomes rote
I could have any relatable girl I wanted But now it’s only for the ego Which is cracking up as I plaster up a new soul-fixing placebo Confidence from compliments And I wish I was narcissistic But just in case you missed it
My facade is splitting at the ******* seams Dichotomy is our nature Hitting covers off the ***** We need to chase our dreams
What will lay waste to a mind that never stops is insecurity Not knowing your value makes it easy to get flirty Makes you feel twice as ***** When you make someone feel the way you wish you felt inside But then you take it back to spare them from wasting anymore time Your brain stuck on overtime, and slow-mo rewind, and the music you listen to mixes with it and all plays back on the same ******* channel
But then you take it back to basics and start ******* around with psychedelics again Who ever knew that pretty girls wouldn’t always be a head-trip?
I could have any normal girl I wanted But now I just want a dark room And silence If only I didn’t have to open up and make out with her inside it
I could have any girl If we just breathed in silence
I could have any girl If my thoughts weren’t so violent If I didn’t picture insanity Whenever I look in a mirror and find it Behind eyes I know have been capable of it this whole time
They have that curios ember A white flash in a chocolate amber With that faint ring of purple And a pitch black center
I wish I could stick a needle in and take that silvery glint out it’s white hot like the flash of a flint against gun powder It just wants to make trouble It adds bubbles to the puddles of personality And in actuality it’s the only thing that keeps me alive when I wake up
I could have anybody Except parents who cared, someone who understands, And people I always made sure stay put Like a shelf full of dolls Like that outdoor playhouse Like I play God
I think the problem through I have human nature figured out Almostly I have myself figured out Just a novelty I’m incredibly cheap Since philosophers are just writers without jobs And jazz musicians are snobs Former potheads are slobs And God is still lodged in the eons of thoughts When I wish I could take a break from this, Part-time atheist But I still can’t ignore he exists!
I could have any face I wanted But I’ll just press mine up against hers until I feel better
I could have any pillow. I still favor her sweater
I could have any romantic moment But instead of love letters