Longing. Melancholy. Missing. Saudade. Heartache. Iranian-America¬n woman with green eyes. Well-read. A little *****. Mentally unwell. Joyfully participating in the suffering of the world. Tired. Eye-*******. Partial toward cold weather. Verb is a noun. God is a place. I miss her and there. Went swimming and nobody asked me about my scars. Rejoicing. Wide smiles and blue eyes. Cloud scatters. Suicidal. Suicidal.. Tired, again.