I've been suffering for some time
Repeating mistakes on rewind
Playing out patterns from infant-hood
And it hasn't left me feeling good

I realized
I have to burn some inner contracts
That I've made long ago
Contracts like
Promising to be there for everyone in need
But I didn't know then that promising that
Would open me up to manipulative people
Who play the role of the boy who cried wolf
They take pride in their victimhood
And with their ploys
Get people like me to meet their every need
Without them having to reciprocate

I have to burn the contract
That I'm only on this earth to please
Other people's needs
They don't even need to respect me
Because I just want their love
But their love is always sub-par
Because these toxic people I attract into my life
Suffer from self-hatred,
And maybe I still do too

I'm burning all old ways
That have kept me tied down to the lies
That I haven't been able to transcend
By denial
I must look these lies that bind right into their very eyes
And recognize their pain
Why I developed these lies to protect me
But I'm awakening
To the truth
That God
And Her/His Love
Is the only way
To my freedom.

So, here I am
Saying goodbye to every lie,
Even every white lie
To shed the layers of pain
And self denial
For a life
of following Love's possibilities.
I am ready.