Wanting the power
the power to my own undoing
complete control now lost
yearning the ability to be happy within my own self
without it I must surrender
completely helpless
left at the mercy of another's mind
another's wishes and whims
I cannot be so powerless
the idea utterly terrifying
waiting each day
for the power to be used
rip my already almost lifeless soul to shreds
at an impasse
unable to merely seize the power
committed to reaching within myself
envisioning the power is mine
then so shall it be
I need my power back
need it for me
that I may stop living in trepidation