my body starts to get heavy suddenly i’m all blue let me just lay down for a minute let me just be quiet for a minute dinner is ready i’m not hungry i’m sleepy but i can’t sleep why my chest is hurting like that? why is so hard to breathe? it’s kinda nice everything seems to be in slow motion actually it’s just me please be patient with me don’t be bothered by my shaky hands or my unquiet leg i’m sweating why do i feel anger? i thought i was sad i’m desperate i’m terrified why do i feel like this? why is so hard to breathe? breathe in breathe out just like they taught you 5 things you can see 4 things you can hear 3 things you can touch 2 things you can smell 1 thing you can taste i’m sorry i know i was ok but now i’m sad at least i’m breathing take my hand be patient with me.