There's this feeling inside
It won't keep quiet
I've tried
But every time I think
Its gone, it comes back
There's still this feeling
He likes me
Even just a miniscule amount
Maybe he really doesnt want to
Hurt me again
At least that's what he says
I wouldn't care
I would do anything to have
What we had
It would be worth it
I was getting better
I know I wasn't a good girlfriend
Even though every time
I say something like that
He always says
That that's not what it was
But mostly every failed relationship
Has been me
Me trying to hard
me showing them too much
Or too little
Showing me
Being too deep with things
There's just so many things wrong
With me
I mean I don't have friends
And its most likely my fault
Some how at least
I've hurt someone with out knowing?
I even hurt someone I used to call
My best friend
Maybe I tried to hard
But can you blame me
When its the only thing on my mind
To get him back
I couldn't stop thinking about it
About him
He's so amazing
He was my therapist
My best friend
My closest friend
He made me a better person
Maybe I'm addicted
I know I'm addicted to something
He knows what that is
But he wouldn't do anything
About it cause he doesn't care
He always says that he cares
But based on his actions
Its not hard to tell that he doesn't care
The addiction is stronger than ever
I don't think anyone can help this
Soon it'll over take me
If it hasn't already
Can I really be saved?
Even if I went to a professional?
Would I even say anything?
Would I be closed off just like
I am with everyone else?
Could I actually open up
And finally be happy Again?
Or would it just fall to
Pieces?