Time lingers on an endless array For just out the window screen I watch many of my nights turn to days
Alone as you are your mind begins to drift To thoughts of past pleasures As it recedes into a darkened abyss For what you feel is of an other worldly pain As you hold on for a new season with no coming change
At times it is pleasant as you are soothed At times it seems as if death is of the only way to break through Silence fills the air of your odds and end conscious No speech for days, silence is the only remaining constant
And as you walk down the street on an afternoon strole Across two lovers you find transfixed in each others hold Desperation and longing fills the space which that warmth did abound Slowly a destitute darkness begins to violently resound
For what others have seems lie just out there Not quite within grasp but in the distance of your stare And while you dream of days filled with joy and love Only to be replaced with black vision hovering above
You try and attempt on an odds and ends affair Only to be tossed out in the cold left with despair For what is it to try if the outcome remains the same Who is that upon which should be left to blame
For socialization and true love are that but a dream Some creation of man to place his mind at ease For is anyone really filled with such a feeling Or is it that my curse upon which all have receded