isn't it amazing how one day you are just going to get up and never look back
never looking back, hand in hand with someone who is never going to leave, without so much as a trace of the misunderstandings and hardships of your past
is that too much to believe? am i being unrealistic? am i no longer an optimist, but a dreamer stuck in fantasies that may never happen
i have to go on believing that, though otherwise, i'm not sure how i'll continue life
i know after hours sitting at the table discussing the soul and the afterlife and /our true destiny/ with my drunk aunties
that there has to be something i know of my own self-worth but there is more
i know now how to live for myself and now i can love someone else
but
how's that going for me?
i'm not entirely sure when i'm going to get up i'm not entirely sure when i'm going to take someone's hand and walk, carefree to whatever it is that is waiting for us
i'm not sure, but a girl can dream, right? isn't that the one thing i cAn do?
i sure hope so.
pls enjoy my optimism with a faint trace of cynicism but yknow not everyone's perfect