I made the decision to love you

Not because your actions were deserving
But because loving me properly

Involved too much work,

Requiring an isolation that I was not willing to forego

Due to selfish, adolescent inadequacies
That i held onto for the purpose of continued victimization

So I chose you as a cohabitant in my desperation

To gain some type of clarity

Control over miscarried thoughts

And feelings

conceptualized into flesh and bone