Everybody I wake up feeling alone with nobody to hold or love I feel empty and shameful my family nobody wants to be around me it feel so painful like somebody has ripped my heart out of my chest as I bleed out sorrow I remember crying out loud from my mom to always be there for me and is like the flashbacks get worse and worse as the day goes by I yearn for my mother's touch I yearn for her love are yarn for my father's love and it's like they don't want anything to do with me like I never existed and then when I try to reach out to anyone to love me it's impossible knowing that you feel invisible I walk around feeling invisible like I don't even exist people say they love you but show you different I never knew what love was and probably never will with me being so depressed dealing with bipolar depression anxiety in a personality disorder