just another one of Those writings, not a poem.

it always happens. i don't know what it is but, i hide myself over and over again. (i forgot the word for shutting yourself out) but i do that to myself, without even noticing. one day i'm talking to my friends, and being okay. and by the next day, i'm alone. i haven't talked to them in a while, maybe one word replies about things we don't really care about. we're just making conversation because we're friends, right?

so now, right now, i feel alone. it's hitting me again that i did that Thing. sometimes my friends and i just send each other posts on social media  about funny things and i've been trying to find posts that i could send them so i could feel close to them again. but i can't find anything. there came a point, where i just stopped trying to find something.

i miss my friends and i feel alone but i know i do it to myself. i don't know how to fix this.