Jul 2018
Title : My Life With
Monster Pain
Poet : Phyll
Genre : Life/Pain/sorrow
Year : 2018
P/SwNO. : 116
( Content; this piece is based on my own true story and applies to our day to day life experiences.Anyone who reads this might find it weird and some actions i did to be stupid but i had no choice.Life is full of pain and when we find ourselves in this situation tend to shy off from our on demons instead of facing them.Personally pain pushed me to the walls twice i attempted to commit suicide with no success but just added more pain on myself.That's when i realised that,no matter how difficult life is and how much pain you endure DON'T give in to those crazy ideas that run through your mind but instead get positive and helpful idea.)
MY LIFE WITH MONSTER PAIN-By Phyll
Life is full of unexpected things,
Luckily,
you can be friends with your enemies;
Unfortunately,
your own life turn to be your enemies.
See,
life is full of surprises.
Funny it may seems, and at the same time,
It will hurt you truly with a monster called Pain.
In my life I have lost big opportunities,not once nor twice but uncountable times.
I had even forgotten how to smile,
how to see a bit further, beyond this misery.
I had also forgotten how to be happy,
how to trust anyone, give them power over me.
I had even forgotten how to be me,
I buried everything deep inside, just to hide it from others.
You taught me how to smile again,
to laugh without reason, to cry from the joy.
Dear Pain,
Thank you for revealing my error again,
showing that path of tears lie in sorrow, not in joy.
Thank you for taking it all away,
making me to hide myself again, to trust no one.
Thank you for telling I am nothing,
pointing my place, to be an outcast in life by my own choice.
And now
I'm making love
Not with a fake human being
But with a brand new razor blade.
Love me,
my razor blade.
Peel my skin,
make me scream.
Sink so deep,
make me weep.
Cut my flesh,
make me bleed.
Take my life,
set me free.
Conversing to myself like a mad man,
Not even 'like' but i had gone insane.
With nice little twist,
I slit my wrist...
Not waiting for life to ****,
rather my own blood I spill.
It's my own choice, I have no fears,
only pain, in eyes some unshed tears.
On the floor, blood making stains,
slowly releasing me from my pains.
****** stains, stains like in my soul,
caused by all the pain, this life Is so full foul...
Vision finally fading away, soon it's all done,
staring darkness, oh so black, soon it's all gone.
Soon I'm released, free from this pain,
suffering and life, it was all just in vain.
Thought,how funny blood makes difference between life and death,
farewell life, so painful, so useless, gonna take my last breath;I told myself.
The pain i felt left many queries unanswered but rather more questions continued acquired.
Why should I listen to my heart,
When It brings nothing but pain.
Why should I fall apart,
When Everytime is the same.
Why should I follow a fake a dream
knowing it will bring nothing but more scream
Why should I ... ?
When I ...
Do you feel me ???
Why should I wait all day?
I feel but I cannot speak it out,
Why do I feel this week weak?
You Moster Do you really feel me?
Why should I go through this agony?
Why can't I just follow my destiny?
Why can't I just let of life?
Maybe because ...
Maybe ... Maybe.
Dear Pain,I do feel You,
But have you ever felt me?
No doubt that;
The pain is in me,
The pain will not leave me.
The pain is all i feel in me,
It's now apart of me.
I just want to;
Cut out my heart,
Cut out my emotions.
Cut out you monster pain!
Only in darkness do i find peace,
Only in darkness can i escape.
Only if this darkness could stay,
But unluckily it wouldn't obey.
I just want to;
Cut out my heart,
Cut out my emotions.
Cut out you monster pain!
But this only added more pain,
I guess they were right;
When they said 'No Pain No Gain'.
The pain i felt made me gain more scars,lesson and experiences never to be forgotten in my entire life.
No doubt that,
Life is full of unexpected things,
Luckily,
you can be friends with your enemies;
Unfortunately,
your own life turns to be your enemies.
See,
life is full of surprises.
Funny it may seems, and at the same time,
It will hurt you truly with monster Pain.
ALL RIGHTS RESERVED
COPYRIGHT BY PHYLL
*(C)2018.
Monster Pain
Poet : Phyll
Genre : Life/Pain/sorrow
Year : 2018
P/SwNO. : 116
( Content; this piece is based on my own true story and applies to our day to day life experiences.Anyone who reads this might find it weird and some actions i did to be stupid but i had no choice.Life is full of pain and when we find ourselves in this situation tend to shy off from our on demons instead of facing them.Personally pain pushed me to the walls twice i attempted to commit suicide with no success but just added more pain on myself.That's when i realised that,no matter how difficult life is and how much pain you endure DON'T give in to those crazy ideas that run through your mind but instead get positive and helpful idea.)
MY LIFE WITH MONSTER PAIN-By Phyll
Life is full of unexpected things,
Luckily,
you can be friends with your enemies;
Unfortunately,
your own life turn to be your enemies.
See,
life is full of surprises.
Funny it may seems, and at the same time,
It will hurt you truly with a monster called Pain.
In my life I have lost big opportunities,not once nor twice but uncountable times.
I had even forgotten how to smile,
how to see a bit further, beyond this misery.
I had also forgotten how to be happy,
how to trust anyone, give them power over me.
I had even forgotten how to be me,
I buried everything deep inside, just to hide it from others.
You taught me how to smile again,
to laugh without reason, to cry from the joy.
Dear Pain,
Thank you for revealing my error again,
showing that path of tears lie in sorrow, not in joy.
Thank you for taking it all away,
making me to hide myself again, to trust no one.
Thank you for telling I am nothing,
pointing my place, to be an outcast in life by my own choice.
And now
I'm making love
Not with a fake human being
But with a brand new razor blade.
Love me,
my razor blade.
Peel my skin,
make me scream.
Sink so deep,
make me weep.
Cut my flesh,
make me bleed.
Take my life,
set me free.
Conversing to myself like a mad man,
Not even 'like' but i had gone insane.
With nice little twist,
I slit my wrist...
Not waiting for life to ****,
rather my own blood I spill.
It's my own choice, I have no fears,
only pain, in eyes some unshed tears.
On the floor, blood making stains,
slowly releasing me from my pains.
****** stains, stains like in my soul,
caused by all the pain, this life Is so full foul...
Vision finally fading away, soon it's all done,
staring darkness, oh so black, soon it's all gone.
Soon I'm released, free from this pain,
suffering and life, it was all just in vain.
Thought,how funny blood makes difference between life and death,
farewell life, so painful, so useless, gonna take my last breath;I told myself.
The pain i felt left many queries unanswered but rather more questions continued acquired.
Why should I listen to my heart,
When It brings nothing but pain.
Why should I fall apart,
When Everytime is the same.
Why should I follow a fake a dream
knowing it will bring nothing but more scream
Why should I ... ?
When I ...
Do you feel me ???
Why should I wait all day?
I feel but I cannot speak it out,
Why do I feel this week weak?
You Moster Do you really feel me?
Why should I go through this agony?
Why can't I just follow my destiny?
Why can't I just let of life?
Maybe because ...
Maybe ... Maybe.
Dear Pain,I do feel You,
But have you ever felt me?
No doubt that;
The pain is in me,
The pain will not leave me.
The pain is all i feel in me,
It's now apart of me.
I just want to;
Cut out my heart,
Cut out my emotions.
Cut out you monster pain!
Only in darkness do i find peace,
Only in darkness can i escape.
Only if this darkness could stay,
But unluckily it wouldn't obey.
I just want to;
Cut out my heart,
Cut out my emotions.
Cut out you monster pain!
But this only added more pain,
I guess they were right;
When they said 'No Pain No Gain'.
The pain i felt made me gain more scars,lesson and experiences never to be forgotten in my entire life.
No doubt that,
Life is full of unexpected things,
Luckily,
you can be friends with your enemies;
Unfortunately,
your own life turns to be your enemies.
See,
life is full of surprises.
Funny it may seems, and at the same time,
It will hurt you truly with monster Pain.
ALL RIGHTS RESERVED
COPYRIGHT BY PHYLL
*(C)2018.
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