ive closed my eyes before
been so in my mind red
the skies turned red
and times at night you could only run
from the demon hunting you
i might know a little more now
i know about costs
that pain that you found that you cant get rid of
hunger and loss
like dying of thirst
when your lips go chapped
and your mouth is so dry
every time you swallow
you see a ghost
             and an angel
maybe i know a little more now
but with that knowledge becomes more questions
how can you feel something?
havent i seen angels form around me
and say "it will be difficult, but you must fight!
                         and let our love be the strength to guide you"
as though i saw the sun
from outerspace
the most brilliant illumination
from when even the clouds overhead
were colored red

i have found a darkness so bleak
that now even in the moonless night
i still recognize there is light
i still feel the pull of the tide
and the stars
and everything beautiful
just the breath i take
is a song
because even though i may not ever die
it feels good to know im alive
i might know a little more now