I need to heal
For real this time
Not with a smart mouth
And a friendship
With flirtatious banter
No that never helped me
How do you heal
When his best friend is desperately in love with you
And acts as your best friend
And leaves you a few months later
Because he rushed into this
And he realizes now you were never ready
But you told him that
You told him that the twenty times he begged you to be his girlfriend
Does no one understand
I was so tired
So tired of the begging
It became so much
I caved
And then it all happened so fast
It's all a blur really
My heart was never in it
He was my best friend
*** felt weird
Everything felt wrong
I guess the hormones were there
But it felt wrong
I'm so insecure
I was never ready
And now he's gone
Because of my insecurities
He promised he'd never leave
He was so in love with me
How does that just change
How
So quickly
Now I'm broken
Broken by my savior
Broken by everything
How do I heal now
How
Someone tell me please
I need answers
That's all
Please
How do I heal?
How do I be my own hero?