Curled up in a ball
Shaking on the cool tile of the floor
Flashbacks run through my head
As I sink in a whirlpool of my intrusive thoughts
Breathing is impossible
And just when I think it’s over
Another wave of memories and pain
Hits me
Tears run down my cheeks
As I wish someone was here with me
But here’s the thing
There’s not a single soul left
Who gives a ****
A single soul who cares whether I’m alive or dead
So if I’m in this much pain
If the panic overwhelms me this much
Why be alive?